Wondering whether he understands my situation.
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He and i have been friends since 13 years of age.
Back then i was blind, i didn't realize how much he loved me and that he waited for me throughout my whole 3 years in high school.
I even dated other guys than him.
He is smart and such a sweetheart from an express stream.
He looks after me in every and any way.
I remembered that i had frequent faints in school, yet he willingly sacrificed his lessons to keep me company.
On 11th to 12th June '07, were the days that i admitted at KK hospital and i missed his birthday on the 11th as it was my operation day.
The time when i was anxious about my first op and my first that i'd missed his birthday.
Afterwards, he came in on the next day.
Together with him, he brought along his Birthday-Chocolate cake and sat next to me on the edge of my hospital bed.
The cake was beautifully made by his mom and indeed, that it taste exceptionally delicious. Yes, i love and enjoyed it.
Months and months later, we both were involved in a Science trip to New Zealand for 2 weeks.
Before the trip, i was sick and unable to attend its meeting. I remembered that he dropped by to my place. Just to pass something ( a small shirt for the trip ) and my parents invited him and my mom was enjoying his company in the living room.
I felt easy to trust him with my parents. Then it was the trip.
Honestly, i had a bloody good time during that trip and also with him.
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At the age of 16, i really fell deeply in love with him and with opened arms, i eventually accepted him as my boyf.
My love for him had made me realize that he was the only guy whom had made me feel so alive after recalling the moments we had in our high school for the past 3 years.
Unfortunately we only lasted for 2 months.
The main reason was; i really do love him but, i had to leave him.
What made me had done this was, the disapproval made by my grandmother of having me being with any arab guys. I was shocked that she found out as my mom told her about it.
i questioned about what wrongs does it make to date an arab guy like him. My uncles thought that i was rude as i questioned more to my grandmother. Sadly, I had no back up to support my own say not even my mom could help me back then.
It took me 3 weeks to think before i stopped the relationship through a phone call. It was harsh moment. I had my own broken heart to stop the relationship with him. I guess i had no choice but to.
He was sad and surprised. I can tell that he was even furious about the sudden break up made through a phone call.
Only my mom and sis knew the love i had for him. Also the fact that mom, met him before.
And by the time on graduation day '08, it was when i wish that it didn't happened but was glad enough to see him smile at me as usual.
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Later then til today, this moment will forever i remember. I was blinded stupidly by the love i had. He won't know but, if i were smart enough i wouldn't have done it.
For whatever it is, we are both are as cool as ever and he will still be my best friend like when we were in high school together.
Have you had anyone whom treat you so well that you can't do the same ?
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